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March 27 I have a soup strainer...Not much to say today... I decided to clean things up around here. Removed some old links that don't work anymore and added a new photo album from a party I went to. Other than that all I have to say is this one's for you Ben.
Me with a moustache...
March 23 Never thought anyone would be interested...Well I've been in the process of working on a side project to my solo music with a good friend of mine Nic. It's been tentatively called The Otters... for the last little while it's been a project with only Nic and I and we haven't had much of a chance to get any real work on it done.
I've learned today however that there are some other interested parties in our little group. A friend of Nic's named Francis is apparently interested and happens to be a good bassist. And the more exciting news is that Sarah Slean is apparently interested in helping out. That of course is big news since she is an already established artist. We'll have to see how that goes. March 22 I Feel OldYsterday was my birthday... happy birthday me. I didn't even do anything for my birthday. I think that's a sign I'm getting old.... Just Seeing if Anyone is Interested...My Friend Ben has a great idea that I figured I would share on here to see if anyone would be interested in it. He wants to start an internet publication for creative thinkers. Basically the idea is that people can contribute whatever they want to the publication, artwork, essays, articles, poetry... and it would all be combined into an organized pdf file which would then be emailed back out to all the contributors to be done with as they pleased. It could be emailed to whoever they wanted or printed and distributed.
It's not exactly set up yet but I've seen a mock up of the idea and it looks good. When it actually gets off the ground I'm pretty sure I'm going to contribute to it regularly so if anyone wants to see my rantings then you could probably just subscribe to it too.
His space is
so you can go check it out. I don't think he's posted anything on there about this idea yet though. March 20 Why doesn't anyone want to play with me?I am very frustrated. I've had a sense for the longest time that my purpose in life is to be a musician but I just don't know what to do about it. For all the songs that I write I never feel as though they're quite up to the level they should be and I feel like I should have other musicians around to balance out my songs and critique and add to them, but there are so few musicians around me who are willing to do it.
I need a band of some kind. I need to find people who are willing to sit down and put real effort into making some music. And they need to be people who are willing to take that music and actually do something with it. Everyone here looks at it like a part time thing, or less than a part time thing. "Oh we'll get together for a couple hours on Saturday or something and see about jamming" but then they don't even call cause they have more important things to do.
Regardless of whether or not I find someone else to work with I'm taking my music on tour this summer. But of course that hinges on whether or not Nic doesn't back out on the tour he has planned. Hopefully he doesn't cause it would be nice to get out there and get a feel for what I larger audience thinks about what I write. North Bay isn't the best place to get a feel for how well you might sell a cd.
My other problem is recording. I don't have all the right equipment to record or even the money to rent out studio time. I was hoping I'd be able to get that done in time to get some cds ready for the summer if I do tour. Course the problem with that too is that I would need to find some decent musicians to help me record stuff cause some of it I would like to do live.
About the only hope I have of working with other musicians is from Nic right now. Cause he wants me to help him do the arrangements for some of his lyrics since apparently I inspired alot of what he had done. September 20 More Pearls of Wisdom From the GovernmentI went in to get my drivers license renewed today and they wouldn't do it so now I am licenseless... not that I drive that much anyways. I don't have a car so that doesn't bother me too much... it's more the principle of it, it would be nice to have if I needed it.. not only that but apparently your license needs to be valid in order to be served at a bar. (which seems stupid to me, since it still shows that I'm old enough to drink)
Anyways, I now have to do a road test to get my license back, because I've gone to long without having a valid license which seems completely unfair to me. More than half the people out there who have kept up their license would fail a road test. They wouldn't even give me a temporary license so I could get back in the practice of driving before the road test. I asked the guy at the MTO what I was supposed to do about it and he just said nothing. So I told him that all they were doing was making it so that I had no choice but to drive without a license. Hopefully I don't get caught. September 18 Another Great ShowWent to a great concert this weekend. U2... probably one of the best bands ever. The show was awesome despite an uninspired opener by Dashboard Confessionals. I wish I had been warned ahead of time that they were opening so I could've went later.
The set design was awesome and the lights were enough to give you a seizure which made it even better. Bono held back from the amount of preaching I thought he would do. The only thing he did have was the articles from the universal declaration of human rights read by a little african girl which I found to be tasteful and actually pretty moving.
They played mostly newer songs like Vertigo and Beautiful Day. The songs I was most excited for were One and Pride in the Name of Love. I was hoping they would play Mysterious Ways but they didn't. They came out for two encores and in the first one Eddie Vedder came out to play with the band.
It was an awesome show I just wish I had gotten pictures. August 05 Don't Hate Me Because I'm BeautifulWhat is beauty? Can it truly be judged or measured through science? We live in a world so hung up on judging the beauty of people that everything around us is designed to be "attractive"... but is their really one standard kind of beautiful that everyone finds attractive?
Some scientists say there is... they say that people find other people attractive based on the symmetry of their face. If that was true then no one would ever find me attractive cause I'm not very symmetrical. Of course I've seen lots of models and actors that don't have perfectly symmetrical faces either that people have posters of on their walls. Cause isn't the truth of it that when you see someone with a perfect face the first thing you think is that it looks fake? Or that they look scary or eerie. To me they look strange not beautiful.
And then you'd have to explain why so many people find beauty in such a wide range of other people. You could argue that it's a pychological self-barrier... that those people who aren't as good looking subconciously lower their standards of beauty so that they can acheive getting a mate they could call beautiful. Is that really what happens though or do those people truly find each other attractive?
I think that there is too much emphasis in our society on who is beautiful though... it often overshadows more important issues. A person can get a better job or have more oppurtunities if they have status quo good looks. They can make millions of dollars working four months making a movie or have an unfair advantage competeing for a promotion. Maybe it's time we stopped looking at the beauty of someone and started concerning ourselves with the beauty in someone. August 03 This May Seem Conceited...I've had a lot of girls tell me that I'm a real "catch"... whatever that's supposed to mean. I'm told that I have a lot of the characteristics that women love in a man. I'm caring, sensitive, intelligent, affectionate, and thoughtful. All things that girls have told me I am. They've also said that I'm attractive, a good cook, and that I have a great sense of humour. I've gotten those compliments from a wide range of girls... many of them are my friends, but I don't think that they'd say those things just to try and inflate my ego, most of them I know genuinely mean it. And that's part of the problem... It's impossible for me to have female friends.
Almost all of the girls that I've been friends with have developed crushes on me. It really makes things awkward for me. I like hanging out with girls because I find that male friends tend to get too competative for my taste. But then my female friends start wanting to be more than just friends and that really pisses off my girlfriend. I will admit it's partially my fault cause I tend to be a flirt, but all of my friends know I'm taken... yet they don't respect that. I've lost so many friends to this that it's really starting to frustrate me. August 01 Best Show EverI went and saw the Doors live last night. It may not have been Jim Morrison anymore but they still rocked. And that didn't matter so much cause I'm a fan of the Cult anyways, which is where they got their new singer from.
They did an amazing version of Light My Fire. Greatnight... looking forward to the next weekend. July 29 Heritage Festival...Well this weekend is the big Heritage Festival weekend. I already went out last night, so I've spent most of the morning trying to recover from that. And tomorrow night I'm going to go to the midway to blow all my money on rides.
It'll be fun. Looking For Love In All The Wrong Places...There are so many people out there who are trying really hard to find love. The problem is that most people look in the wrong places and that's not really their fault, there just aren't many good forums to find someone who is serious about being in a commited relationship.
The typical place you go to meet people is a bar I guess. But everyone there is looking for simple, no strings attached sex... that's no place to find a meaningful relationship and that's definitely not the best way to start one. Yet I have so many friends who tell me they have a new boyfriend they picked up at the bar... and they're crushed a week later when he won't call them anymore.
There are tons of other "services" out there devoted to bringing people together... like phone services and internet dating sites. But if you've ever looked at them it seems like the majority of the people on them are the people who are going out to the bar to pick up but they want to find someone to bring along. These ones at least seem like a better idea than picking someone up at the bar.
To me the more logical choices for finding a meaningful relationship would be finding some kind of activity that reflects your values and lifestyle and going out and meeting new people in that environment. Whether it be through volunteer work or a city recreational sports team... at least there the people aren't really trying to impress in the hopes of getting you in bed. July 27 Where Are All The Men..?It seems to me that the idea of sex roles has evolved a lot over the last few years. The idea of what makes a man or woman has been altered from what it's been for a very long time. In my parents generation a man was seen as a "breadwinner", they went out and got the job to support to family, or they ran the farm that fed them. But men were also seen as individuals of strength and technical knowledge. Even looking at it as simply as that the man could open a jar for you or fix something wrong with your car. Those kind of things were what made a man a man, and those were the things that attracted a woman to a man.
Now it seems as though sex roles are becoming very ambigious. I have nothing against women working or being self-sufficent, but I don't enjoy being de-sexed. Women now want men to be more like they are. More sensitive, more nurturing, more gentle and there are times for men to be those things... there are other times for men to be men. To be hard, opinionated, and pig-headed.
If you start breaking down the core emotional and physical barriers that make men and women different it could only lead to negative things. We're different for a reason. Our strengths compliment each others weaknesses. If we try fusing that all into one person something is bound to get lost along the way. July 19 Home Sweet HomeIt's about time I had some time offWell it's been a long time so I don't know if anyone even looks at this anymore but I guess we'll find out.
I've been very busy lately so I haven't had much time to sit at my computer not doing work. It's starting to slow down now though so I think I'll be able to start putting stuff on here again.
I've got some decent recordings of my solo music that I'll try to put up soon. Also I've been hired by a local band called Legends to be their lead. So I sing and I play guitar for them. We'll be playing some shows around the Heritage Festival this summer here in North Bay, so if anyone wants to come out and see us play that would be great. I do a great cover of Roadhouse Blues.
It'll take me a while to go through all the comments and stuff I've gotten so I'll start working on that now and hopefully I can get back to all of you. I'll start checking all your spaces too. So expect to hear from me.
May 25 I'll see you after the rainWork has been crazy for the first little bit. I had to undergo training and it's taken up the majority of my time. Hopefully after a little while I'll have some more time to start writing on here again till then I think I'll be sleeping and going to work. All of my spare time has been spent writing music. I'm working on some stuff of my own that I've wanted to finish up and I've been working on stuff with my new musician friends that's great... very different from what I'm used to writing. It's a lot heavier and much less acoustic based. On top of that I've finally gotten my side project I was working at on a roll. It's kind of a fusion sound of blues and jazz and acoustic metal... really different. Just me on guitar and working other tracks for drums and programming and my friend Tanner on vocal tracks... she's got an amazing voice. I'll have some good quality tracks to post soon hopefully... till then hope everyone has a good time. I'll see you all later... I'll try to start posting on here more regularly again. Just not today... I've got to go get groceries... I don't even have any bread left. That's a tragedy for me. I love sandwiches. May 19 A Breathe of Fresh Air...Posted a new recording on my audio site. The song formerly known as Suburban Rain, now known as Picket Fences... As always it's not the greatest quality, but it'll give you a rough idea of what it should sound like. I've found a couple of new musicians to write with so I'll be working with them on some new material and we'll be going into studio after... finally, some real recordings and equipment to work with. It'll be fun. In other news... I am now employed. Maybe now I can settle into a normal schedule again. May 17 All Work And No Play Makes Shawn A Dull BoyWell it's been a while since I've posted anything and that's mostly because I've been focused on job hunting. It's been hard finding a job that actually meets what I'm trained to do at this time of year, but all I can do is keep looking. I've finally found one really promising job though as an early childhood educator. It's an education program that is run through North Bay Daycare Centres over the summer. I'm really hoping to get the job but the competition is stiff. I made it through the first interview and now they want me to go through a trial run with the kids... this could be difficult since I'm more of a high school kind of person, but you take what you can get and I'm running low on funds. Wish me luck, my trial run starts Thursday. May 09 A picture's worth a thousand wordsYesterday was agreat day. I had a big barbeque for my mom. Everyone came out to it. The whole family was there so it was a lot of fun. The only problem was that I was throwing the party so I had to cook for everyone but it turned out great. My mom really liked it so as long as she's happy everything went well. I've got a bunch of pictures from the barbeque in my photo album in the My Family section. I added a bunch of new pictures of me in the Pictures of Me section. And I've started a new section that I'm going to try and make an ongoing section that's called Fun with Food. So that should be real fun after I start collecting more pictures to go in there. Hope you enjoy them. May 08 Happy Mothers DayI would just like to say Happy Mother's Day to all you mothers out there. It's an important job, a difficult job, a job that lasts a lifetime, and so many of you do it so well. Perhaps the best mother would be mine. She is a selfless, loving individual who gives so much of herself without ever asking for anything in return. She is always there when anyone needs her and she is always ready to help without complaint or criticism. I love you mom. |
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